(no subject)

I wish I NEVER knew he exsisted.
I wish I could forget he exists.

I wish I wasn't hurting because of him.
The pain of what he did to me won't go away and yet I keep letting him back into my life, what the hell is wrong with me?!

I'm trying to be strong but, the pain is stronger ...
It's breaking me..
  • Current Mood
    numb numb

(no subject)

Life is pretty much back at sqaure one. 
I have a lot of work to do ... ALL over again.  To get back to where I was...
  • Current Mood
    uncomfortable uncomfortable

(no subject)

I'm becoming so nervous.
I've never had surgery of any kind and on Saturday at 8:30am all four of my wisdom teeth are coming out.
But, everyone or almost everyone gets them out at one point or another.. so, I'm not exactly sure why im so nervous about it.
Well, expect for the fact that im being put out and the dentist who is doing the extraction is still in school.....
  • Current Mood
    nervous nervous

uh.. yeah.

2 months or so of school left.
I want it to be over.
I HATE feeling like I do.
I wish I could be better.
I wish I was better...
  • Current Mood
    indescribable indescribable